Today I ...
Today was hard. Really hard.
It’s settling in. It’s becoming evident. I am no longer able to deny.
I’ve lost someone very important to me.
I’ve been holding it in, and now it’s slowly coming out.
I’m letting go.
Before I always thought letting go felt like a breathe of fresh air. This feels like I’m being hit by a bus. I’m crushed under the tire and there’s no moving me.
I know it’s for the best, but … something’s holding me back. Something is suffocating me.
I’ve been through much worse than this in the past. I’m much stronger than this. I know it.
I think my soul just needs to be sad for a moment. Enjoy the hurt. Enjoy it because soon I will never hurt again. Soon happiness will find me again and it will never let me down like this ever again.